Finally feels like a new year. I want to say I feel Changed but now I’m back to the way I was before. But some Decisions were made and I think I’m ready for some sort of new phase of my life. I don’t know what step 1 is but I’m going to figure it out.

Not updating this thing for so long was a mistake, now I have nothing to read back on. The past few days are like months in my head so I guess it’s better this way.

I work at Neighborhoodies in the Natick mall now, so if you’re ever around there come visit. I’ll make you a tshirt.

I miss everything as soon as it happens. Every awesome moment I’ll never get to relive. This summer has been amazing. I wish there were more pictures. I’m glad Tina took some tonight

I just worry about how fast everything is changing and how does it make sense that I already miss it

I need to get back on track with growing up. I am missing something.

It is not normal to be single for 2 years (or has it been three? How long have I had this bracelet on?) (it probably is not normal for my memory to be this poor) when was the last time I even went on a date?

i don’t like how i feel right now and i want to go to sleep

be my girlfriend. Have you heard the new National record yet? It’s not too late for it to be our Summer Album. I’ll bring it over.

someone buy me a paid Flickr account plz, it won’t show all my photos anymore!

Nothing has actually changed since my last entry. I am trying not to spend as much money as I have been. I was doing pretty well, not driving as much, saving gas money, not eating out every night. Latest impulse buy was a Spectra AF. Not a huge fan of the glossy photos, maybe there’s an alternative.

Looking for a way to get to Chicago next week. Craigslist has not yet delivered, but for a few possible leads. We’ll see. I’m excited about seeing Sonic Youth, GZA, and Of Montreal. I’m even excited for the long car ride.

I feel stressed, or anxious, for no real reason. It’s probably because of this trip. I hate getting anxious about vacations. That just should not happen.

Today I’ll clean my room, go through my record pile, make the mix tapes I’ve been putting off, and get some mail sent out. Not bills, though.

Oh yeah, I’m moving to NYC at the end of the summer. bye!

Things are okay. Riding my new longboard. Silk screening ‘GHOST RIDE THE WHIP tshirts. They’re 5-7$ if you give me a tshirt to print on, or 10$ at HBML in Worcester. Sleeping a lot. Reading some good books (Bukowski, Camus). I’m not lonely but I’d like a cutie to spoon with on a regular basis. Boys or girls, whatever at this point.

Mountain Goats road trip next month.. Pitchfork Fest in Chicago (July). I’m going to get my car checked out, and if it’s cool to drive, everyone should come!

Running out of money. I’m a mess. I want chicken alfredo. I haven’t washed my hair in about 5 months. Yard sale at my house next weekend. Ask me about it. Let’s ride bikes soon ok

Haley sold me her old Canon FTb 35mm SLR, I think I like it. The shutter isn’t as fast as the AE-1, and there’s no DOF preview, but it’s growing on me. I couldn’t do double exposures with my Minolta so it’s nice to have those back. Metering is easier (or at least, more intuitive) than the AE-1.. and thousands of times better than the Minolta. I don’t think I ever took a single shot I really liked with that camera.

Yesterday was so beautiful. I think the winter is finally over. It was in the 70s. Jocelyn and I went to the flea market and made friends with an old record hoarder. I got the Bob Dylan s/t LP (in mono!), Prince’s 1999, and some Hank Williams Jr/Sr. for $10.

Sat in the sun for a while at Elm Park and my skin started peeling. I need to get out more.

Things are going to get better soon, I know it.

WHAT A GREAT WEEKEND!

i obviously love that jacket and shirt.

i hung out with adam, that was fun!

i think i appreciate black coffee more

job offer.. relocation to manhattan. do i go back to school, or take this job? i’m lost

comfort isn’t always boredom

so many weird dreams lately, and i’m remembering them all

SAL PARADISE WAS RIGHT