www.neil.blog memo to myself. do the dumb things i gotta do. touch the puppet head.

May 9, 2005

me and julia saw austin powers the other day on rte 9.

Filed under: Uncategorized — lj @ 11:16 pm

I’m not excited about graduating, because I probably won’t. I’m not going to lie to myself, there is almost no way I am going to be able to walk across the stage with my class, and it sucks. I can’t even enjoy my last 15 days or whatever it is, because right now things are looking pretty bleak. I’m looking at myself in the mirror as I type this and I realize the kid that I’m staring at doesn’t even care. I put all my energy in high school into the wrong places. All I cared about was moving up the social ladder from the outcast I was, or viewed myself as, in junior high. So I got what I wanted. More friends, a reputation, for people to know me and hate me or love me or whatever. Doing whatever homework I could scrape up between classes or in study hall, never really caring about my grades except the day before and the day after report cards came out. Barely passed a few classes, and a few grades, escaped summer school many times and just went on to do the same thing the next year.

I managed to coast through two years of junior high school; plus a full three-and-three-fourths years of high school. If I can just scrape through the rest of this term, my life will be perfect. I’m accepted to college, I have tons of friends, a steady job, a good family, and on top of that I’m fucking gorgeous. Except even the kids with no friends can manage to pass fucking ALGEBRA TWO. THE SECOND TIME I’M TAKING IT. AND I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO.



    Comment by radioxsurgery — May 10, 2005 @ 3:39 am

  2. 🙂 lets hang out.

    Comment by zig_mover — May 14, 2005 @ 5:05 pm

  3. algebra sucks. I barely passed that in highschool, too.

    Comment by beaching — May 10, 2005 @ 3:46 am

  4. fuck that shit.

    Comment by zig_mover — May 14, 2005 @ 5:05 pm

  5. yo give danny that camera, he keeps asking me about it! hunka, chunka goregous man rawr. no seroiusly, give him the camera. and call me.

    Comment by what_the_f — May 10, 2005 @ 5:30 am

  6. i just got a 56 on my math test (i’m taking alg2/trig) MAYBE IF I TELL YOU THAT, YOU’LL FEEL BETTER, BUT CHANCES ARE TELLING YOU MY GRADE WON’T DO ANYTHING. NEILTRYREALLLYHARD, or maybe stay back 2 years and we can go to school together :-*

    Comment by this_is_me_emo — May 10, 2005 @ 11:15 am


    Comment by zig_mover — May 10, 2005 @ 12:43 pm


    Comment by this_is_me_emo — May 10, 2005 @ 6:55 pm


    Comment by zig_mover — May 14, 2005 @ 5:05 pm

  10. aw, :-*

    Comment by this_is_me_emo — May 14, 2005 @ 5:22 pm

  11. you’re not so cute…?

    Comment by soulinstilettos — May 10, 2005 @ 2:27 pm

  12. yes huh!

    Comment by zig_mover — May 14, 2005 @ 5:06 pm

  13. dude, i dunno… convince me.

    Comment by soulinstilettos — May 14, 2005 @ 9:09 pm

  14. I, like you, only cared about that horrible social ladder…. until I gave up and relized that’s not what I wanted — those people werene’t my friends — they jsut KNEW me… so i jumped off the lader and started over to fidn TRUE friends. and i have…. and its been great. i get by on MNAY classs too. i am a slacker and i have the potential…. but i dont wanna do it. i too, cannot grasp Algebra II. I hate it. I hate any geometric concepts that go along with it.

    Comment by blueapollo88 — May 10, 2005 @ 7:23 pm

  15. I’m finally passing Algebra 1 my second semester as a sophmore, I’m fucking screwed!

    Comment by fusia_fuse — May 10, 2005 @ 7:31 pm

  16. Who are you?

    Comment by zig_mover — May 14, 2005 @ 5:07 pm

  17. I took the same math class 4 times once. And then, I had to go to summer school to graduate. I’m just completed my third semester of college, but I passed this time. smartypants.

    Comment by shawnafucking — May 11, 2005 @ 2:14 am

  18. neil sleep with ur teacher thats how i got through high school

    Comment by bigfuckinmike — May 11, 2005 @ 3:41 am

  19. i’d rather fail.

    Comment by zig_mover — May 14, 2005 @ 5:07 pm

  20. in a way i’m envious of how lightly you take school and how you have time for all your friends. i wish i could do that. i’m so obsessive about school i think i’m giving myself an ulcer. but on the “flip side”, you’re not in a very good position now. :[ all i can say is try your hardest, and if you do make it across that stage i’ll be in the audience applauding for you. and whistling. and hooting. and being terribly embarrassing. :] hearts for you. PS IF YOU STAY BACK MAYBE WE’LL END UP IN THE SAME MATH CLASS

    Comment by panda518 — May 11, 2005 @ 8:39 pm

  21. ADD ME

    Comment by im_unstoppable — May 14, 2005 @ 9:36 pm

  22. k!

    Comment by zig_mover — May 19, 2005 @ 1:42 am

  23. hope you like comments, ’cause you’ve just been ADDED. yeah i’m a dork-loser face.

    Comment by pineapple223 — May 18, 2005 @ 11:35 pm

  24. k duh

    Comment by zig_mover — May 19, 2005 @ 1:43 am

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