www.neil.blog memo to myself. do the dumb things i gotta do. touch the puppet head.

Here is a picture of my family at the top of Mt. Monadnock in NH:

What a riot.

I want to do 100+ miles on the Appalacian this summer, is anyone interested in that sort of thing? It would be like a weeklong trip. Maybe late August, I want to start south of MA and hike up. I think. I need to look into it more, it is just an idea at this point. My legs are still sore from the mountain this weekend, but I think I could work up to it.

Bought my tickets to Pitchfork. Anyone planning on going to Warped Tour is going to have the worst time EVAR (although I hear some people already did!) while I am watching the best lineup. I just need to figure out how to get to Chicago cheaply and funly. Any suggestions? Maybe I can make some kind of road trip out of it, is there anything I should see between here and Illinois(e)?

Hung out with a bunch of kids from high school today. They haven’t changed; I still don’t feel like part of that group, but it’s fun to catch up, I guess. Hopefully I’ll see some fun people tomorrow.

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Originally uploaded by neeeil.

In this picture, Gary is picking up ants and putting them into a cup. I don’t know why. Today we played catch with a baseball and soggy gloves because he left them out in the rain. Later on we played frisbee in the street until it was too dark to see. I love him and I’m glad I am being (or making an effort to be) the cool older brother I always wanted.

I actually wanted a big sister but whatever

Life is. I’m partially content to sit in my room all day and listen to the Mountain Goats and just relax. I want to meet more people. I will start doing this soon. I’m hanging out with Molly tomorrow! She’s one of my favorite people that I never see.

Going to NYC next week to hang out with officeparty and see EELS yayayayay

I am working on being happy right now. It is sort of working. I just think about bagels and cute girls and actually listening to Joni Mitchell probably isn’t helping things but whatever. Mountain climbing on 6/17, please come, it will be a blast if the right people come. Which means you.

Also on Friday I had such a great time at tsams, Amber thank you for having a birthday and inviting the best people. Where are pictures from that event?

my one hundred seventy-two hour streak of being extremely happy nonstop came to an end today when i went to adam’s wake.

i can’t sleep. i know one thing that could help me sleep but i don’t want to become someone i have always hated and i sometimes feel like i am headed down that path, you know? i think i am making the right choice even if it means insomnia. maybe i will just have a benadryl instead.

is it foolish to think i can succeed without college? i feel like i just want to get married and have kids and a house but can i have this and be happy without a college education and the benefits ($) that come with it? maybe not in this country, i guess. i just don’t feel like i’m cut out for college.

i think this weekend will be fun, as long as i don’t sleep too late tomorrow(today). that will ruin everything.

it was getting boring being happy, anyway.

I am posting right now so I remember how happy I am.

For the sake of posterity I will complain about trivial things:
1. i need a new wide lens
2. i need to vacuum my car
3. i want to make out with someone real bad right now

the past 4 days have been great. Most of the days are blended together in my memory for various reasons, but I hung out with Sean a lot, and today Julia and I visited Chelsea. It was great. I have nothing to worry about these days, I don’t remember feeling like this EVER. People that are not as happy as I: I do not envy you.

The weather has been beautiful, I’ve been running, and walking in the woods (Purgatory is so nice), etc

i’m afraid i’m going to go to sleep and wake up not as happy as i am right now, i will be so sad

This post is to celebrate that my new work schedule has:
FRIDAY OFF
SATURDAY OFF
NO WORK TIL 4PM ON SUNDAY

aka I HAVE A WEEKEND NOW
for the first time since I started working there.. when i was 15. This means I can now DO THINGS on the weekend without having to commit to a day off.

aka:
CAMPING
HANGOUTS
LATE FRIDAY NIGHTS
ROAD TRIPS

this might not all sound like a big deal to you, but i am genuinely excited about this.

Also:
hanging out with Kelli on Saturday. yayyayay. I like her. And Rick. I was gonna go up earlier this week, but my car ran out of gas IN MY DRIVEWAY. I don’t even know how I got home from work the night before. Coasting, mostly. I had to drive my dad’s car to the gas station to fill up a can.

also, I like my new job. I haven’t been feeling very social lately. And I’ll sleep for 12 hours and wake up exhausted.

ATTN New England friends: June 17th, I’m hiking Mt Monadnock in NH. Let me know if you want in. Or up. Whichever.

there is a yard sale at my house this weekend, organized by my parents. donations were solicited from people in nearby towns, so it’s a massive fundraiser for the boy scouts, usually raising over $2,000. anyways

i got a bunch of records and i will now tell you all of them
The Cars – Heartbeat City
Paul Simon – Graceland
Hall and Oates – H20
Cat Stevens – Teaser and the Firecat
Neil Diamond – Stones
Stevie Wonder – Innervisions
Quiet Riot – Metal Health
David Bowie – Young Americans

and also “The Impossible Dream – The Story of the 1967 Boston Red Sox.” I bet this one is so boring but it seems neat.

also “Basil Rathbone (who is this??) reads Edgar Allan Poe” (pit and the pendulum, cask of amontillado, facts in the case of m. valdemar) SWEET two of my favorite Poe stories

all of these records were $4 total

Also:
-some girl was lurking by my house all day, probably 10 yrs old, I guess her dad was at the yard sale earlier, and she goes “my dad said you’re gay” and i was like “tell your dad he can SMD”

-at the gas station yesterday the dude in front of me kept peeking backwards at me, and when he gets up to the counter he leans in to the cashier and jerks his thumb back at me and goes “i think bono is in line behind me, check that out”

-my dad said if i don’t like it i should get new pants

-when i was driving home tonight some asshole was honking at me because i guess i didn’t turn fast enough? so i opened my sunroof and gave him the finger, and he high beamed me.. and then threw a cup or a bottle of water at my car and it bounced off the roof and all the water went through my sunroof and it splashed all over my head

fucking ridiuclousridiculousriduckiousdff

my new camera is the same as the old one but it makes a weirder noise

1. yes, i would have. i did last time. i guess i just would have figured i was on the list.

2. my fingertips are itchy.

3. #3 is dedicated to annie.
3b. we love lists

4. cute, quirky idiosyncrasies quickly veer to become annoying faults. i try to see past ..

5. none of the above? fuck it cut the cord

did anyone figure out what that box is for “location” when you post?

new jersey wasn’t terrible. i’m not ready to do it again anytime soon, but i did get to see:

hellogoodbye (dance party w/tony j)
method man
LIFETIME

incredible. bayside acoustic set at the ascap party (sponsored in part by sparks, gross (beer soda)), halifax was awesome, sean jumped on the stage and broke it

things i never want to see again: MAKERS

i learned a hard lesson that continued far into the next day

oh yeah: panic at the disco sucks. i like the first half of their album.. but i’m sorry, if you have seen them live and still honestly like them, get your head checked. SERIOUSLY.