it’s weird. i don’t know how to handle getting in fights with people/even small arguments. i don’t ever even exchange angry words with anyone. or even slightly pissed-off words with anyone. i’ve never had my personality piss off someone who was already my friend, i thought. maybe i’m just too sensitive. i haven’t been treating my body very good lately- i barely remember friday night (tsam’s, then ?) saturday was strange, saturday night was sad for me but helped slightly by peach schnapps and a certain piece of ceramic. spent today in cambridge with crystalyn buying ugly sweaters by the pound (literally) and watching an amazing Of Montreal performance. i haven’t had enough sleep so i’m extra-emotional, so the occasional Bad Thing really made me feel like shit (nobody’s fault, i guess, but mine).
when i got home my mom gave me a lecture on how i need to stop ‘spending the night’ with underage girls. this cheered me up a little, because apparently my mom thinks i’m having sex. i told her i’m glad she has high hopes for my sexual activity, but i’ve never done anything besides make out with girls. i hope i didn’t let her down by telling her i’m still a virgin (my dad was probably upset to hear this, he was almost convinced that i’m not gay. this revelation may have set us back a few steps).
remember how every time i have a girlfriend and there is some kind of fight or disagreement i don’t know what to do and just break up with her. i don’t have enough conflict in my regular life (so i love other peoples’) and i don’t know how to react when i’m actually involved (or the source). i don’t know how to change this except maybe being more mature.
comment anonymously (or logged in, if you prefer) with one thing you hate about me. this is for self-improvement purposes. don’t tell me how you hate my livejournal entries, because i do too.
I can’t really pass a judgement on hating you because I don’t know you that well and we have never met. I’ve talked to you on AIM, twice maybe. The first time I talked to you, you were a sarcastic dickhead. I’m all good with sarcasm but not the dickness. But it doesn’t really matter.
Comment by shawnafucking — March 6, 2006 @ 2:10 pm
YOU WENT TO DOLLAR A POUND!
Comment by blownfuses — March 6, 2006 @ 2:13 pm
I HATE THAT WE DON’T HAVE ANY CLASSES TOGETHER!
Comment by anonymous — March 6, 2006 @ 2:14 pm
you need to stop being late for things =( just a pet peeve.
Comment by mollyfatale — March 6, 2006 @ 5:28 pm
iawtc
Comment by off_stage — March 6, 2006 @ 10:32 pm
I LOVE NEIL YAY
Comment by this_is_me_emo — March 6, 2006 @ 7:50 pm
1.you feel distant from me. keep a group of close friends with me in teh group. 2.you may drink too much. maybe. 3. 2.you should take school more seriously. people would commit genocide to go to school. i know it’s our generation’s and origin’s predisposition to hate education but you’re not in millbury high anymore. 17.YOUR FUCKING LIVEJOURNAL ICON. A)who the hell is that that comments on all of your posts?
Comment by coheed — March 6, 2006 @ 9:57 pm
you treat your body like shit and then complain about headaches, stomach pains, etc.
Comment by anonymous — March 6, 2006 @ 10:19 pm
you’re too hard on yourself. you’re a great person and you need to realize/accept this. you need to think for yourself more, and your own needs…and stop worrying about everybody else so much. [they can worry about themselves]. people will speak up when they need your help. you dont have to worry what the other person is thinking all the time. concentrate on making yourself happy surround yourself with people that make you happy drinking often= bad all in all neil, youre one of my favorite people
Comment by off_stage — March 6, 2006 @ 10:36 pm
i hate that i’ve never chilled with you.
Comment by konkretekastle — March 7, 2006 @ 2:34 am
1. You don’t drink enough. God. Your friends are fucking prudes. Also, you’re kind of egocentric. Not in a bad or mean way, but in a way that I don’t think allows you a lot of insight into the world around you. You kind of have tunnel vision going on. Even this post. Write what you hate about me? Who could even take that question seriously? Maybe you should do some internal “soul searching” if you’re dissatisfied with yourself, but letting other people “tell” you what you need to change is ridiculous. Ride it out. No one said life made sense. It’s not supposed to. You’re not missing anything. Make your own sense. Luff.
Comment by rudenreckless — March 7, 2006 @ 10:04 pm
i like your livejournal…
Comment by waterinmylungs3 — March 8, 2006 @ 8:11 pm
i hate that you hate being touched. & touching. i like touching. & being touched.
Comment by soulinstilettos — March 12, 2006 @ 5:16 am