I started smoking cloves and Dreams for a few weeks, but I got sick of coughing shit up. And my car smelled. So if anyone wants a half a pack of Blacks, and/or a half a pack of Cherry Dreams, they’re all yours.
I have been kind of sad lately, I don’t feel happy doing anything. I can’t think of what I want to do with the rest of my life. I hate working, and school, I have no hobbies or real valid interests. I have no desire to find a girlfriend, I’m lazy, I can’t do anything that I’m supposed to when I’m supposed to.
I think I’m done drinking and smoking pot. I don’t want to get messed up. Everything they say about marijuana being a gateway drug is probably true. When I start researching and looking for someone who will sell me mushrooms or acid, things I never would have thought about before, I feel like all those theories are right. Maybe not for you, but for me. Not that it hasn’t been fun, but I am just afraid of what I’m going to do to myself.
I’m not saying I’m going to be edge, but I don’t want to fuck myself up. You only get one shot at this (interestingly, an argument used by both sides of the drug-use spectrum). I’m worried that my complete lack of goals, combined with an interest in drug experimentation, can’t be good for my future.
i know exactly what you’re talking about with the whole gateway drug. you should send me the cigarettes in a care package.
Comment by tonyceratops — December 8, 2005 @ 9:15 pm
i was thinking about it but i have no boxes
Comment by zig_mover — December 11, 2005 @ 9:21 pm
:] i wish i could give you a hug right now
Comment by panda518 — December 8, 2005 @ 10:32 pm
duh
Comment by zig_mover — December 11, 2005 @ 9:21 pm
<3 <3 <3 or <3 x 3 if you so prefer
Comment by jeedai — December 8, 2005 @ 10:43 pm
TOLD YA, NIGGA
Comment by this_is_me_emo — December 8, 2005 @ 10:45 pm
Truth
Comment by zig_mover — December 11, 2005 @ 9:21 pm
total gateway drug and its AWEESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!! i saw you the other day it was awesome as well
Comment by amish_fistfight — December 8, 2005 @ 11:09 pm
it’s awesome EXCEPT for the gateway drug part
Comment by zig_mover — December 11, 2005 @ 9:23 pm
yea I did the whole drinking and smoking pot thing. Then I got addicted to Vicodan. Then I started smoking opium. Then I started smoking pot as much as possible. and drinking as much as possible… and not caring that much about life in general. Then I almost died while taking numerous Vicodans, smoking a huge bowl, and taking 4 shots of jager…all in a 6 hour span. Lets just say, I decided to stop…and start enjoying my life again. And I have, and I’ve never regretted it. and I want those blacks. and…a giant banana. kthx. xoxox
Comment by tuneofyourdeath — December 8, 2005 @ 11:29 pm
i want themmm! i dont smoke much but its nice to have them around
Comment by twohourdrives — December 9, 2005 @ 2:29 am
since i graduated from high school (about a year and half ago) i’ve heard of about 5 or 6 people that have died/gotten killed…mostly from OD-ing. just be careful. i care about my random livejournal friend.
Comment by soulinstilettos — December 9, 2005 @ 4:48 am