I don’t know what I’m feeling right now. I’m borderline crying and I don’t know why. I told Addie that things weren’t going to work out. Molly helped me pick out new clothes in Harvard Square and I spent a lot of money, but it was a good day. I have a few more weeks off from school and I don’t know what I’m going to do. Last night was a lot of fun. I’m really lonely. Again. For no reason.
Wait, I figured it out. This is ridiculous. I’m not jealous. Really. I’m happy. For them.
Well, that was a good year. #1 best person I met in 2005 award goes to Crystalyn. Best friends that I didn’t see enough of: Rod and Rachel. Ex-girlfriend that I got to know better after we broke up: Shanon. Number of hours I worked: 1750 (approx). Money I saved: $86 (current account balance).
Number of cars I owned last year: 4. Number of cars I broke last year: 3. (The other one was already broken when I bought it.)
Hook ups: 5. Number I felt guilty about afterwards: 3. Number of times I begged Rachel to find me a girlfriend: 1,000. Actual girlfriends: 1. Number of times I questioned my sexuality: too many.
Money spent on expensive electronics: $2,000. Remaining balance on laptop computer: $1,000.
Vinyl records purchased: 72, plus 18 Salt n Pepa records that I got on eBay. Number of times I thought Al Bum’s was sketchy: every time.
Favorite album of the year: The City on Film’s In Formal Introduction. Favorite single: !!!’s Take Ecstasy with Me. Most vapid, vacuous musical atrocity: Black Eyed Peas’ My Humps.
Shows attented: lots. Favorite: Eels. Second favorite: Alan Jackson. Most fun socially: The Rocket Summer. Most musically depressing and making me realize I don’t like going to shows as much as I used to: Hellogoodbye.
A few things stick out as being some of the most memorable times of 2005. Bamboozle was a good time. Going to Maine with Sean and Robyn was awesome. I remember being in Maine for a wedding on the side of the road drinking (disgusting) beer and talking with my cousins, and thinking that it was a perfect moment. Smoking pot for the first time on the school ski trip. The lady at Moe’s asking why I’m always in with a different girl. Breaking my veg-edge after 3 years, at the company cookout. I remember thinking how weird it was that I rode a skateboard a few blocks from the parking lot to get to my 9-to-5 job every day, and then having old ladies yell at me to get a job. I think the Best Kiss of 2006 Award has already been given.
Thank you to everyone for a wonderful year. If you made me smile once this year, I love you, and I mean it.
aw neilface being reflective. WHATS UP MISTER!!!
Comment by this_is_me_emo — January 2, 2006 @ 8:42 am
WHAT?
Comment by zig_mover — January 3, 2006 @ 2:45 am
Get away for a little while spend a weekend in ny or jerseyyyyyy do it!
Comment by backseatblues — January 2, 2006 @ 8:44 am
i’ll be in NJ for bamboozle what’s good in NY?
Comment by zig_mover — January 3, 2006 @ 2:45 am
hahaha im glad to hear that you had a great year last year. Just think, this year is going to be better x20… i think?!
Comment by xxassfirexx — January 2, 2006 @ 10:39 am
ITS GOING TO BE SO GREAT
Comment by zig_mover — January 4, 2006 @ 9:09 am
thank you
Comment by panda518 — January 2, 2006 @ 2:55 pm
WLCM
Comment by zig_mover — January 4, 2006 @ 9:10 am
it feels like i’ve known you so much longer! thankyou for everything <3
Comment by off_stage — January 2, 2006 @ 4:58 pm
🙂
Comment by zig_mover — January 4, 2006 @ 9:10 am
SMILEBUTTON!! this is where i push your nose. don’t worry neil, you are one of the fabbest person i know. =) and i la la love you!
Comment by mollyfatale — January 2, 2006 @ 7:15 pm
persons, plural. aw hell, you are THE fabbest person i know.
Comment by mollyfatale — January 2, 2006 @ 7:16 pm
there was a part in here that i deleted about how i’m glad i called casey that one time and ended up going over his house and meeting you. thx.
Comment by zig_mover — January 2, 2006 @ 7:25 pm
awww! you’re the best, neil! you really are =) hughughug
Comment by mollyfatale — January 2, 2006 @ 7:30 pm
Number of times I begged Rachel to find me a girlfriend: 1,000. HAHAHHAHA god it’s so true. I love you.
Comment by whiskywaterkiss — January 2, 2006 @ 8:46 pm
do you work at Iparty? Because I was driving past there and I thought I saw you in the window. haha.
Comment by streetlightlove — January 4, 2006 @ 3:04 am
no but i think there is a dude there that kind of looks like me, maybe. i work at the internets!
Comment by zig_mover — January 4, 2006 @ 3:55 am