August 16, 2006
August 13, 2006
August 11, 2006
allergies
hi guys, i went to chicago for a few days and it was so much fun
i drove with 3 people from craigslist, none of us knew each other and it was kind of neat. probably as close to on the road as i’ll ever get.
the show was great. mission of burma, spoon, ted leo, tapes ‘n tapes, MOUNTAIN GOATS, silver jews, OS MUTANTES WTF so many more i don’t even remember
the best part was hanging out with nick, misee, and zach, going to that rooftop party, i don’t know everything was great. i stayed in a hostel. i got lost in south chicago and had rocks thrown at me! that sucked.
that was so long ago so i won’t talk about it any more
i saw jonah last night, he was great
sox game tomorrow with mom, dad, and little brother.
school starts again soon
i hope everyone has been well
i started a new blog and more frequent and lame updates go there. it’s not hard to find.
this has been the best summer ever probably. a few weeks left. what are you up to?
July 19, 2006
polaroids!
and finally, this is me doing a shot of Jager at Brian’s grave:
Life is fantastic. I like my new bike. And the Polaroid camera I found in my mom’s room. I like not working a lot of hours and having free time. I am taking a week off and going to Chicago to see some of my favorite bands. Taking the train, I think. If anyone wants to come, let me know so I don’t have to travel alone :\
My hair is changing colors from the sun and it looks gross again.
I AM THINKING DUMB THINGS ABOUT GIRLS BUT I WILL LEAVE THOSE OUT AND KEEP THIS A HAPPY ENTRY
EDIT: DO GIRLS LIKE “FARMERS TANS” BECAUSE I AM GETTING ONE
July 14, 2006
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Today Crystalyn and I went to a spa and I got my hair cut.
I wish I had ‘before’ pictures from the same angle, but it was an inch longer than the top of my shoulders.. and the bangs were down to my chin. So. This is a nice change. I’m sure my skin will appreciate it (which is NOT as clear as these pictures make it look, do not be fooled).
BEACH TOMORROW :):) i am very verrrrrry excited.
Legitimate update eventually. For now, let’s talk about how I got my first haircut in months. or years. and how awesome the beach is.
July 4, 2006
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I may be losing my job as early as this Thursday. None of us are excited about it, but the level of satisfaction and progress from the job just aren’t there for anyone. I took a personal risk by taking the job (success was never guaranteed) but it was an exciting one. An intriguing venture, and certainly one more interesting than the daily grind at the [internet company]. It may not have worked out, but I feel like it opened doors for me anyhow.
Where I’ll go with college from here is undecided. As fare as Worcester State is concerned: I hate it. And one of my favorite professors died last month (RIP Prof. Walker). I’m registered for 2 classes in the fall, but I may decide to take 4. I can repeat a couple classes from last semester that I failed and try to salvage my GPA. I can only go for another two semesters, anyhow, considering the damage I did to my transcript between the mono and the subsequent depression. I’m not sure if I’ll go back to another school, but I’d like the option to be there.
This is all speculative, as it’s not certain I’ll be out of a job (but I guess it’s likely). I’m comfortable here, with the friends family and up til now, a steady job. I could probably go back to the tech support gig and fall back into my old pattern. It’s just that if I am going to get paid shit wages, it should be a job that I enjoy. And I’m too young for a shit job. I could move a little bit east.. Framingham.. Boston.. and get paid more for doing probably the same thing.
But do I want to stay in Millbury forever? It would be pointless to get an apartment in Worcester, and endure the same boring scene for more years. I need a change of scenery. Is Boston too close? NYC seems prohibitively expensive, but with the right job I think I could swing it. I don’t even know if I want to stay on the east coast. There is so much out there and right now it’s all open to me.
I could stay here forever, comfortably, but I’m not sure it’s what I want.
But there’s nothing holding me back from getting out there and seeing more of this country and planet.
Input will be appreciated, if you have any.
June 24, 2006
June 20, 2006
yes, those are all my brothers.
Here is a picture of my family at the top of Mt. Monadnock in NH:
What a riot.
I want to do 100+ miles on the Appalacian this summer, is anyone interested in that sort of thing? It would be like a weeklong trip. Maybe late August, I want to start south of MA and hike up. I think. I need to look into it more, it is just an idea at this point. My legs are still sore from the mountain this weekend, but I think I could work up to it.
Bought my tickets to Pitchfork. Anyone planning on going to Warped Tour is going to have the worst time EVAR (although I hear some people already did!) while I am watching the best lineup. I just need to figure out how to get to Chicago cheaply and funly. Any suggestions? Maybe I can make some kind of road trip out of it, is there anything I should see between here and Illinois(e)?
Hung out with a bunch of kids from high school today. They haven’t changed; I still don’t feel like part of that group, but it’s fun to catch up, I guess. Hopefully I’ll see some fun people tomorrow.
June 6, 2006
aminibunny: cornelius armageddon patrick despres
In this picture, Gary is picking up ants and putting them into a cup. I don’t know why. Today we played catch with a baseball and soggy gloves because he left them out in the rain. Later on we played frisbee in the street until it was too dark to see. I love him and I’m glad I am being (or making an effort to be) the cool older brother I always wanted.
I actually wanted a big sister but whatever
Life is. I’m partially content to sit in my room all day and listen to the Mountain Goats and just relax. I want to meet more people. I will start doing this soon. I’m hanging out with Molly tomorrow! She’s one of my favorite people that I never see.
Going to NYC next week to hang out with officeparty and see EELS yayayayay
I am working on being happy right now. It is sort of working. I just think about bagels and cute girls and actually listening to Joni Mitchell probably isn’t helping things but whatever. Mountain climbing on 6/17, please come, it will be a blast if the right people come. Which means you.
Also on Friday I had such a great time at tsams, Amber thank you for having a birthday and inviting the best people. Where are pictures from that event?
June 2, 2006
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my one hundred seventy-two hour streak of being extremely happy nonstop came to an end today when i went to adam’s wake.
i can’t sleep. i know one thing that could help me sleep but i don’t want to become someone i have always hated and i sometimes feel like i am headed down that path, you know? i think i am making the right choice even if it means insomnia. maybe i will just have a benadryl instead.
is it foolish to think i can succeed without college? i feel like i just want to get married and have kids and a house but can i have this and be happy without a college education and the benefits ($) that come with it? maybe not in this country, i guess. i just don’t feel like i’m cut out for college.
i think this weekend will be fun, as long as i don’t sleep too late tomorrow(today). that will ruin everything.
it was getting boring being happy, anyway.