you guys forgot to post the best one:

rachel and I dared him to get a picture with some random guy at gorettis. dude didn’t know what was going on.

yet another reminder of how senseless the entire fucking war is.

mom, since i know you read my journal, can you stop buying the columbo brand of yogurt cups? the dannon kind is so much better. i know we’ve talked about this before but i think you just bought another case of it and its so groce

also going to nj/nyc until monday, so bye

oh yeah benadryl

fact: the new mountain goats ep is GREAT and makes me smile

fact2: ‘the office’ is funnier than any show i have ever watched, including seinfeld. i’m sorry.

i went to court yesterday (new friends, see the entry/newspaper clipping

it wasn’t ‘court’ as in a trial, but a meeting with a magistrate (i still had to navigate the courthouse, it was intimidating. one of the cops was there, and he read the police report, the best part was the kids part of the confession. and also watching his reaction as it was read– i could see his regret

the fucking lawyer was telling me they ‘had considered filing a COUNTER CLAIM’ because the whole thing was really all my fault since i pushed the kid away from me. what the fuck? i can’t believe they are here asking me to consider dropping the charges and yet have the goddamned AUDACITY to say something like that

i stepped out and thought about it and decided to let the whole thing go. even if i was “an eye for an eye” type of person, i’m sure he’s more than already paid for what he did. his MOM was there, and offering me a bribe to drop it.

don’t ask me why i did this. the entire incident probably has affected my life for 3 hours total since it happened (police report, post-incident laughter, changing band-aids, driving to courthouse). meanwhile this kid could lose his chance of going to college/having something like this fuck up his life. what do i want that for? for me to take this case any further would be malacious, worse than the original attack. i feel like i made the right decision.

in a completely non-
 livejournal-dramatist
  attention whoring
  pseudodepressed
  ‘i’m hinting at someone’
  overemotional teenager (well maybe that)
kind of way,
i’m really lonely. seriously. what do i do about this.

pondering the monty hall problem

i will understand it for a minute, then completely lose my train of though. i am close to getting it, even with that thorough explanation

fuck, what

i haven’t had a crush on anyone in about 2 days, what am i going to do.

a certain song just made me sad, really sad, but i will be happy in a few minutes. well, not if i keep listening to cftpa. i’m really bad about associating songs with certain things or people or events. i don’t want to remember that feeling it makes me sick

fuck, what am i talking about. did i tell someone i’d hang out with them today? i can’t

mostly disinterested in being social. i think rachel said the same thing? i dont want to leave the house
bye

i watch episodes of the oc until one makes me smile at the end. today it was 4. i’m disgusting. season two isn’t bad. someone please come hold my hand

GOOD JOB FINDING MY NUMBER!!!! 😀

Today was beautiful out! I smiled a lot. I rode my bike to the library (ok, I can see it from my house) and I was out of breath. Went to class. Went for a walk down the Millbury bike path. 30 minutes of walking, then a 20 minute jog back. This is including all the times I had to stop and try not to throw up. I’m so out of shape, it’s disgusting. But it was so nice to be outside! Tomorrow it will be 70 or something, and I will go outside again. and it will be nice. fucking internet

i’m so lazy

this is going to be the first time i’m asleep before 2am in over a month, no lie.

i’m happy for now

my cell phone will be off… i don’t really like it so i’m not charging it anymore. if you need me you can call 914-861-1280, thx. i probably won’t pick up, but i’ll return your call asap

reply with fun songs to jog to! (i already have lil john and the cure so don’t say those) (ok the cure probably isn’t good jogging music)

i think i lost my camera and i’m going to cry