www.neil.blog memo to myself. do the dumb things i gotta do. touch the puppet head.

I can’t believe it’s been over two years since I wrote here. I guess, after where I left it, nothing else seemed to matter. i miss maura all the time, so incredibly hard. Megan is the only person in my everyday life who understands. Of course our old friends know exactly how I feel, but it’s weird to think that none of my NYC friends know who she is, Megan only knows because I talked about her all the time, and was there when I got the call. The demarcations between old and new, I feel, are drawn by this.

I didn’t start typing in here to be that kind of entry, so I’ll cut it short.

I’m doing really well in Brooklyn. Megan and I have been together for 3 years, I’ve been gainfully employed in IT for over 2 of those years, and I’m quite happy. It took a while to settle down, but I’m getting there. I’m not as lost, lonely, or confused as the days when I had to write here every day- as a way to sort out how I felt, and as a way of getting input on how maybe I should feel. I’m more secure, stable, content.

I’m still around- email is best, phone calls are OK too, and if you’re ever in NYC and want to get a cup of coffee, I’d love to see you again.

Hope you’re well. Goodbye!

I’m confused. I’ve never had to deal with the loss of someone I was this close to. I’ve never felt closer to another person- never felt as though- well- I know she got my last letter, my drunken chicken scratch making sure she knew how much she meant to me and how much she was the impetus for my move to New York (it was one year ago last week).

I love you I love you I love you

C. said he wont know what to do when he goes home and she’s not there to jump out with her arms spread and yell and make everyone everything okay

I love ytou

hay friends
things in nyc are okay!

i got a job, doing IT work. it’s great. i go all over the city fixing different things. i work hard, i am good at what i do, i enjoy it, i dont sit in a boring office (or at my house) reading message boards all day anymore.

Moving in with my girlfriend next week. Relatively nervous. I think it will be nice, though. What should I expect? Tips? HALP

here is a picture of meg and i. check my flickr for a couple more from the summer.

that’s all for now.
love, neil

I was back in Worcester to see my mom graduate college. Hung out in Allston with Rod & co., partied in Worcester with Joc, Maura, Chris, and others; saw my family, lots of fun was had, beerz, The Model, saw Ana!, jacuzzi’d with Tiel, lunch with Natasha and Eponine, missed a couple people I really wanted to see but I couldn’t deal with 9 hours on trains and buses in one day sorry

It was nice to see my friends and laugh and realize I haven’t had a really good laugh in 2 months, even my family was a riot, I miss that

But being back in NYC around all this energy and action and I don’t know I don’t think I could live in Mass again, at least for a while.

I work at Neighborhoodies again, in Brooklyn. It’s decent.

Went to court yesterday for my skateboarding thing, panicked, took the $95 fine instead of standing my ground with the NOT GUILTY plea and facing a possible CRIMINAL RECORD and I can’t believe I fucking did that because that’s so much money

My brother Glenn is coming to hang out tonight WHAT CAN WE DO u guise

Just checking in. I wish I had realized the pawn shop across the street would be in this photo.

Neighborhoodies shut our store down, so I lost my job. Fuck a buncha that! I loved working there. Ohh well. I need a new job.

The city is great. I’m getting by. I’m exhausted. Went to a bar last night, a 3 minute walk away. Tried to get home and needed a cab because I didn’t know where I was. I almost started crying, being drunk and exhausted and wet and lost but really I was just being ridiculous.

Write me a letter, I’ll write back.

hay NYC is great i’m having a lot of fun and meeting new people and working a lot and walking and just haaaangin

come visit, i’m a 5 minute walk from the fung wah dropoff

today i got a summons for sk8boreding. i have to go to court? hahahah

ok more uptade l8r BYE mis you!

hay u guise,

i’m moving to NYC in a week. sorry you had to read about it on livejournal. i know we don’t hang out anymore. i’ve been working 55 hour weeks, i don’t hang with anyone anymore, i mostly drive to allston after i get out of work at 1030 and visit rod.

i’ve been saying i was moving for almost a year, nobody really bought it, but here it is. monday is my last day at Cyberonic, thursday is my last day at Neighborhoodies, Saturday is my last day in Massachusetts. I’m not sure how long i’ll be gone, but i don’t think i’ll be back in a few weeks or anything.

i’ve never been away from home any longer than scout camp for a week. i’m kind of scared. but i’m 21 (happy birthday to me, last week) and i live with my parents and work lame jobs and it’s time to go try something new and exciting and take advantage of my youth and whatever. ok no i don’t feel like explaining this or talking about it any longer

if you’d like to see me before i leave, uh i guess you can come see me at the natick mall. i’m working every night until thursday. also 1-8 today, sunday til 6. i’ll be free mostly after work, if you want to hang out super late, pickin apples, making pies, put a little something in our lemonade and take it with us

bye