www.neil.blog memo to myself. do the dumb things i gotta do. touch the puppet head.

March 21, 2005

your hands touched my plastic legs and still they felt cold.

Filed under: Uncategorized — lj @ 11:34 pm

The past few days have been kind of weird. Friday was Bananacon (spring break edition), the traditional LAN party in Kendall’s basement. I wish I could have stayed longer, but I had to worj in the morning and I’m a pussy when it comes to waking up. Saturday Cailah and I were going to see Xiu Xiu, but it was 17+ (which is fucking stupid) so we just walked around Boston. I’d never done that before, and it was fun. I’d never actually hung out with Cailah before, so I wasn’t sure what to expect but fortunately it was good and we had good talks and a Brand New singalong. She knows how to navigate Boston and I’m jealous, because I have no idea where anything is.

Sunday after worj I hung out with Kirsten and everyone else that was at Erika’s.

I also broke up with Kayleen. I don’t really think I can explain why. It was just the way I felt. I’m sorry it ended like that. I wanted to sit down and talk about it with her but I don’t think she wanted that, actually I don’t know what she wanted but whatever. Saying our relationship “only existed online” really hurt me and I don’t even know where that came from. We’re both really busy and I did what I could to see her whenever I could. If I thought she wanted the kind of relationship where I drive to her house every time I have five seconds free, I would have done it. But I thought we were both fine with only seeing each other once or twice a week.

She also took me (and Kirsten) off of her Livejournal friends list, and I’m not really sure why. I never said I didn’t want to be friends. It’s not like I’m offended or anything, I just think it’s weird. After Shanon and I broke up, she wouldn’t even look at me for like four months, but at least we still read about each others’ lives.

But anyhow I think I’m done with relationships for a while. I suppose I need to grow up too. I don’t think I can handle a serious relationship at this point in my life. I’ve tried and they just end up not being what I need. So my apologies to Kayleen for wasting two months of her life. Well, internet time. Heh. 🙁

Whatever, I didn’t even want to say anything about it but I don’t want to read back over this thing in a few years and not know what went on when I was younger. Oh yeah, today Rod, Miller, and I went to White City and hung out with Julia. We called the Pope and ordered pizza and spat gum up in the air. It was sweet. Then I went and hung out with Kirsten. We’re going to a show on Wednesday, I’m excited.

This is life.

29 Comments »

  1. “HEH” i WISH I KNEW HOW TO MAKE THE FONT TEN MILLION TIMES BIGGER, I NEED TO MAKE FUN OF YOU MORE. jkkkk, and when you look back on this when you get older, you’ll be like ANNIE LEFT THE DUMBEST COMMENTS. lan partiez 4 lyf

    Comment by this_is_me_emo — March 22, 2005 @ 5:10 am

  2. HEH, and also DID THIS WORK?

    Comment by this_is_me_emo — March 22, 2005 @ 5:12 am

  3. NO I HATE LIFE.

    Comment by this_is_me_emo — March 22, 2005 @ 5:12 am

  4. HEH

    Comment by zig_mover — March 22, 2005 @ 5:21 am

  5. *claps* he got a new icon! I mean, I can’t believe you broke up with her, she’s so pretty.. *shrugs* but that’s life. As long as you’re happy and you have your priorities straightened out, mate. *hugs*

    Comment by mintgreenpearl — March 22, 2005 @ 5:12 am

  6. I’ve had that one foreverrrrr. Like since I got my camera in December 2003. I just never use it. And I’m working on my priorities. I don’t know what it will take to be completely happy, and I don’t even know if I’m going in the right direction. I’ll figure it out.

    Comment by zig_mover — March 22, 2005 @ 5:21 am

  7. fucking Girls

    Comment by raincoatromance — March 22, 2005 @ 5:24 am

  8. PPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP SSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS I can’t wait till wed :]

    Comment by raincoatromance — March 22, 2005 @ 5:30 am

  9. YOU ALMOST JUST BLEW ME OFF@! :/ <3

    Comment by zig_mover — March 23, 2005 @ 4:08 am

  10. THERE WAS SUPPOSED TO BE A HEART AND A SMILEY FACE AT THE END OF THAT BUT IT DIDN’T WORK I’LL TRY AGAIN <3 🙂

    Comment by zig_mover — March 23, 2005 @ 4:11 am

  11. haha. I love you so much <33 and pshh. I'm going tomorrow so WHAT NOW!!! we're gonna throwdown :]

    Comment by raincoatromance — March 23, 2005 @ 8:26 am

  12. we had alot of fun, summer time it will be even better! sorry to hear about you and kayleen. rememebring labeling ruins a relationship most of the time.

    Comment by xteamnealex — March 22, 2005 @ 10:37 am

  13. yeah.. i know. also i want to hang out with tiel eventually so you have to guide me through boston again! 🙂

    Comment by zig_mover — March 24, 2005 @ 7:37 pm

  14. ok! tiel is an awesome girl. and beautiful, and ahhh! i love her.

    Comment by xteamnealex — March 25, 2005 @ 2:51 am

  15. oye

    Comment by infinityxcubed — March 22, 2005 @ 12:28 pm

  16. AMMMBER <#333333

    Comment by streetlightlove — March 22, 2005 @ 12:35 pm

  17. vey

    Comment by zig_mover — March 23, 2005 @ 4:06 am

  18. HOLY SHIT YOU GUYS HAVE LAN PARTIES? I WANT TO MOVE UP THERE RIGHT NOW >_<

    Comment by starsoldier — March 22, 2005 @ 8:03 pm

  19. the server message on the CS:S server was that. YOU’RE MISSIN OUT GUY

    Comment by zig_mover — March 22, 2005 @ 8:12 pm

  20. white city was funny i love eating cock. <3

    Comment by radioxsurgery — March 23, 2005 @ 12:32 am

  21. You love the cock. And the pope. And White City.

    Comment by zig_mover — March 23, 2005 @ 4:06 am

  22. Well it’s good you handle breaking up relationships well and don’t piss and moan a whole lot. When you think of it though, isn’t dating what you do when you have marriage in mind? (it does to me…sorry, I hate High School relationships)So unless you were planning on getting married I think you’re making the right choice.

    Comment by xdanimalx — March 23, 2005 @ 2:47 am

  23. No, it’s what you do when you want to meet people and find someone you enjoy spending time with. People ask me this all the time and I don’t really know what to tell them. It’s just fun. Most of the time. I’m not planning on getting married right now, but I might as well get started on finding out what kind of person I want to marry. And if you think I don’t piss and moan about bad relationships.. good thing you weren’t reading this last year.

    Comment by zig_mover — March 23, 2005 @ 4:03 am

  24. No, it’s what you do when you want to meet people and find someone you enjoy spending time with. People ask me this all the time and I don’t really know what to tell them. It’s just fun. Most of the time. hmmm…well as the best flash character ever made put it, “No two people are not on fire”

    Comment by xdanimalx — March 23, 2005 @ 7:18 pm

  25. GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

    Comment by tommiller — March 23, 2005 @ 3:43 am

  26. hey, I just saw your username in the This Providence group. you’re adorable. &I’m from MA/RI, too. I thought that was really cool (: hehe add me?

    Comment by forget__me__not — March 24, 2005 @ 3:58 am

  27. i’m back. 😀 i feel better, sort of. we need to talk and hang out A-SAP. i’m sorry about Kayleen. [mucho love] p.s. call me?

    Comment by panda518 — March 24, 2005 @ 4:25 pm

  28. YES i will call you later. wanna go to moe’s? or coldstone. i really want coldstone all the time. GLAD YR BACK!<3

    Comment by zig_mover — March 24, 2005 @ 8:09 pm

  29. “But anyhow I think I’m done with relationships for a while.” if i had a dollar for every time i said that in JUST the past two weeks……..i could buy enough concert tickets to last me till next christmas. lol.

    Comment by tweedandroses — March 27, 2005 @ 1:36 pm

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