www.neil.blog memo to myself. do the dumb things i gotta do. touch the puppet head.

Here is a picture of my family at the top of Mt. Monadnock in NH:

What a riot.

I want to do 100+ miles on the Appalacian this summer, is anyone interested in that sort of thing? It would be like a weeklong trip. Maybe late August, I want to start south of MA and hike up. I think. I need to look into it more, it is just an idea at this point. My legs are still sore from the mountain this weekend, but I think I could work up to it.

Bought my tickets to Pitchfork. Anyone planning on going to Warped Tour is going to have the worst time EVAR (although I hear some people already did!) while I am watching the best lineup. I just need to figure out how to get to Chicago cheaply and funly. Any suggestions? Maybe I can make some kind of road trip out of it, is there anything I should see between here and Illinois(e)?

Hung out with a bunch of kids from high school today. They haven’t changed; I still don’t feel like part of that group, but it’s fun to catch up, I guess. Hopefully I’ll see some fun people tomorrow.

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Originally uploaded by neeeil.

In this picture, Gary is picking up ants and putting them into a cup. I don’t know why. Today we played catch with a baseball and soggy gloves because he left them out in the rain. Later on we played frisbee in the street until it was too dark to see. I love him and I’m glad I am being (or making an effort to be) the cool older brother I always wanted.

I actually wanted a big sister but whatever

Life is. I’m partially content to sit in my room all day and listen to the Mountain Goats and just relax. I want to meet more people. I will start doing this soon. I’m hanging out with Molly tomorrow! She’s one of my favorite people that I never see.

Going to NYC next week to hang out with officeparty and see EELS yayayayay

I am working on being happy right now. It is sort of working. I just think about bagels and cute girls and actually listening to Joni Mitchell probably isn’t helping things but whatever. Mountain climbing on 6/17, please come, it will be a blast if the right people come. Which means you.

Also on Friday I had such a great time at tsams, Amber thank you for having a birthday and inviting the best people. Where are pictures from that event?

my one hundred seventy-two hour streak of being extremely happy nonstop came to an end today when i went to adam’s wake.

i can’t sleep. i know one thing that could help me sleep but i don’t want to become someone i have always hated and i sometimes feel like i am headed down that path, you know? i think i am making the right choice even if it means insomnia. maybe i will just have a benadryl instead.

is it foolish to think i can succeed without college? i feel like i just want to get married and have kids and a house but can i have this and be happy without a college education and the benefits ($) that come with it? maybe not in this country, i guess. i just don’t feel like i’m cut out for college.

i think this weekend will be fun, as long as i don’t sleep too late tomorrow(today). that will ruin everything.

it was getting boring being happy, anyway.