my one hundred seventy-two hour streak of being extremely happy nonstop came to an end today when i went to adam’s wake.
i can’t sleep. i know one thing that could help me sleep but i don’t want to become someone i have always hated and i sometimes feel like i am headed down that path, you know? i think i am making the right choice even if it means insomnia. maybe i will just have a benadryl instead.
is it foolish to think i can succeed without college? i feel like i just want to get married and have kids and a house but can i have this and be happy without a college education and the benefits ($) that come with it? maybe not in this country, i guess. i just don’t feel like i’m cut out for college.
i think this weekend will be fun, as long as i don’t sleep too late tomorrow(today). that will ruin everything.
it was getting boring being happy, anyway.
I don’t want to go to college. I know I don’t, but my mom is practically making me. Plus, if I don’t continue school I can’t have the money my dad left me until I’m 25. Idk which is worse, using the money on college that I feel would be a waste, or waiting an extra 7 yrs. for it. I don’t want to sleep lately, even though I’m soso tired. Stupid.. stuff 🙁
Comment by phalange — June 2, 2006 @ 9:29 am
i always feel like i just dont want to go to college anymore i am ready to just be a house wife, already! cooking, cleaning, having kids! you know! and i’m sorry your happy streak came to a halt, and i hope something cheers you up really soon. ♥!!!!!!!!!
Comment by hadababyitsaboy — June 2, 2006 @ 3:47 pm
fiday night cheered me up, i tell you!!
Comment by zig_mover — June 4, 2006 @ 9:43 pm
you can absolutely 100% live and be happy without a college education. just not in the northeast pretty much. i’m living in oregon now and barely anybody goes to college. but then again… everyone works construction, and no one follows their dreams. so if you have something you really want to do that doesnt require school, you can totally do it man. just probably not in massachusetts.
Comment by drownxinxclouds — June 2, 2006 @ 4:24 pm
what are you doing out there?
Comment by zig_mover — June 4, 2006 @ 9:43 pm
i came out here to take a job running a builder exchange. and i wanted to gain some experience. but its not really what i want to do.. i wanna do music. so in my free time, i create it, and back in mass, i’m going to get a degree in music business. hopefully it works the way i hope it does.
Comment by drownxinxclouds — June 5, 2006 @ 3:35 pm
being happy all the time is ridiculous! sometimes it feels good to be sad/unhappy. and you can marry me anytime now, i’m ready. the babymaker is waiting.
Comment by infinityxcubed — June 2, 2006 @ 4:32 pm
i am ready for the babymaker!! let’s hang out soon k
Comment by zig_mover — June 4, 2006 @ 9:43 pm
Life is what you make it. I’m not going to college and I have faith that i’ll have a happy life. You don’t need loads of money to make life worth living.
Comment by findyourescape — June 2, 2006 @ 4:45 pm
If college isn’t giving you anything and it bores you to tears, it sounds like you’re wasting your time and money at the moment. You can always go to school later when you know what you want to do. So what would the plan be instead? Sum suggestions: -Generate a sweet website to showcase your photos and then contact cool magazines to get work from them. -How much does it cost to blow up your photos? For certain there are galleries in NY or a hundred other cities that would show your work. For certain. [And yes, it’s that good.] I don’t know how http://www.gettyimages.com works, but I’m sure they’d pay big for good shots. check ‘er out. Also, what about moving images? Ever considered camera work for film? Or making your own short films/submitting them to film festivals. Sorry, I just spammed your journal *blush*. Forgive me.
Comment by warmest_glow — June 2, 2006 @ 5:03 pm
I’m sorry I didn’t stick around. Nick and I were there from 4-5:45 or so…I didn’t know anyone except for his parents…so I felt awkward and sad…so we left. 🙁 I’ve told so many people this…but my aunt dropped out of HIGH SCHOOL, and didn’t even get her GED. She now is the vice president of a HUGE company called Churchill Coatings, and she basically sits in her office all day and yells at people. You’re smart, and you’ve got a lot of skills in areas that companies look for. You’ll have no problem getting a good job and making it in the future. I promise.
Comment by whiskywaterkiss — June 2, 2006 @ 4:48 pm
One more: Album covers. Oh Duh- HELLO!- you should be doing graphic design!! You’ve already got the mad skillz for that. Even your lj layout pwns the universe. If you don’t want to go to school for this, just get a book and figure out Illustrator and the other programs they use. Or take a night class. I can guarentee you’ll make a sweet living doing graphic design. Hells, that will take you far. DO IT.
Comment by warmest_glow — June 2, 2006 @ 5:09 pm
thanks for the suggestions 🙂 i’m going to work on my photography a little (a lot) more before I start doing that. I didn’t make my layout, a friend did. Also, when you are going to reply to my entries, don’t reply to someone elses comment, people get confused 😉 thanks again.
Comment by zig_mover — June 4, 2006 @ 9:45 pm
♥
Comment by sellyourdoor — June 2, 2006 @ 6:25 pm
Know any wise old men?
Comment by lynettemexico — June 2, 2006 @ 7:56 pm
choose insomnia. don’t make me worry. college offers security. it’s not necessary, but you’ll regret it if you don’t finish. just suck it up. i ♥ minus the bear. have you ever seen them live?? uch, so good. goodnight corneilius
Comment by soulinstilettos — June 3, 2006 @ 5:30 am
only like 7 times 😉 they get better every time
Comment by zig_mover — June 3, 2006 @ 5:47 am
I always look at your family and see how happy you all are, and it’s not like your dad ever made a whole bunch of money for that to happen. I see your mom and dad together and with your brothers, and they seem content even when your house is 56 degrees in the winter (jk jk). Do what makes you happy. If you don’t want to stay in school, take some time off like my sister Sarah did. Go back when you think you’re ready.
Comment by mintgreenpearl — June 6, 2006 @ 4:12 am
Hey, who are you??
Comment by _afterglow — June 20, 2006 @ 4:45 pm
Does this journal not give a clear enough idea of who I am and what I am about?
Comment by zig_mover — June 20, 2006 @ 4:46 pm
It does. I like your photographs. And I liked what I’ve read so far also. Why have you added me, maybe that’s the better question? (Sorry if my English isn’t correct. Haven’t spoken or written in English for a long time.)
Comment by _afterglow — June 20, 2006 @ 4:52 pm
Your English is fine (and certainly better than my German). You don’t have to add me back- this is just an experiment and you’ll be unfriended shortly. Thanks :]
Comment by zig_mover — June 20, 2006 @ 4:58 pm
Thank you. What sort of experiment is it?
Comment by _afterglow — June 20, 2006 @ 5:05 pm