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July 4, 2006

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Filed under: Uncategorized — lj @ 1:48 am

I may be losing my job as early as this Thursday. None of us are excited about it, but the level of satisfaction and progress from the job just aren’t there for anyone. I took a personal risk by taking the job (success was never guaranteed) but it was an exciting one. An intriguing venture, and certainly one more interesting than the daily grind at the [internet company]. It may not have worked out, but I feel like it opened doors for me anyhow.

Where I’ll go with college from here is undecided. As fare as Worcester State is concerned: I hate it. And one of my favorite professors died last month (RIP Prof. Walker). I’m registered for 2 classes in the fall, but I may decide to take 4. I can repeat a couple classes from last semester that I failed and try to salvage my GPA. I can only go for another two semesters, anyhow, considering the damage I did to my transcript between the mono and the subsequent depression. I’m not sure if I’ll go back to another school, but I’d like the option to be there.

This is all speculative, as it’s not certain I’ll be out of a job (but I guess it’s likely). I’m comfortable here, with the friends family and up til now, a steady job. I could probably go back to the tech support gig and fall back into my old pattern. It’s just that if I am going to get paid shit wages, it should be a job that I enjoy. And I’m too young for a shit job. I could move a little bit east.. Framingham.. Boston.. and get paid more for doing probably the same thing.

But do I want to stay in Millbury forever? It would be pointless to get an apartment in Worcester, and endure the same boring scene for more years. I need a change of scenery. Is Boston too close? NYC seems prohibitively expensive, but with the right job I think I could swing it. I don’t even know if I want to stay on the east coast. There is so much out there and right now it’s all open to me.

I could stay here forever, comfortably, but I’m not sure it’s what I want.

But there’s nothing holding me back from getting out there and seeing more of this country and planet.

Input will be appreciated, if you have any.


  1. i still think you should come to boston with me. lord knows im taking out ten thousand loans to make it possible. you can look for an IT job there! i’m sure there is plenty! -hug-

    Comment by mollyfatale — July 4, 2006 @ 10:22 am

  2. it looks like i might be going to boston. hopefully i can find something in IT!! 🙂

    Comment by zig_mover — July 6, 2006 @ 1:38 am

  3. you have a lot going for you. as far as college is concerned, take whatever classes you are registered for [and actually show up to them] at worcester state. once you finish those, really consider what you want to do with yr life. if you want to pursue a new career, then start looking at new colleges to see if they have what you are looking for. with yr job: i have no idea. i know that you love the internets, but i don’t know if you really love helping people with their crazy internets. and i just don’t know if you could tolerate any other job, whether it has shit wages or not. i recommend that you stay in new england. travel, sure, but keep your jome around here. i know that you love autumn. not many other places have a wikkid nice autumn like new england. boston could work, or even new york [but i would miss you a lot]. i don’t know enough about the city to give any real input. sry. i don’t know if that helped, but i liked writing this comment anyway. :]

    Comment by nikkitr0n — July 4, 2006 @ 1:48 pm

  4. I’d say regardless of where you move, you should find some stability job or school wise before moving. I’m all for exploring, but the last thing you want to do is be stuck moving back home or to a cheaper living area because the job you got wasn’t 100%. Whereever you decided to go, I’m sure it will be an improvement from where you are now. And I wouldn’t reccomend going to NYC right away, I’d say work your way east then south. But that’s me.

    Comment by ___tiel — July 4, 2006 @ 2:19 pm

  5. i was looking at my friends list and annie was in my room, and she saw that you updated and ran back to her computer to read it.

    Comment by unodostracy — July 4, 2006 @ 3:41 pm

  6. this is very true :-[ NEIL THIS IS HOW MUCH I LOEV YHUO

    Comment by this_is_me_emo — July 4, 2006 @ 3:43 pm

  7. yo i heard last night that people in nyc tell their children not to go to worcester cuz were scary.. so going there and saying your from worcester might be fun.. but more practically, if you really want to move.. no, boston isnt too close. i think its kind of perfect. worcester is far enough for me to be away from there when i want to, but its not hard to go home either. <33

    Comment by boxingthestars_ — July 4, 2006 @ 4:41 pm

  8. I’m pretty sure I’m moving to Providence. After looking for a place where I don’t know anyone, but it’s close enough so I can drive home…I concluded Rhode Island to be good. I have a few acquaintences who live in Providence. They say the public trans is great, that there are TONS of little shops and records stores, and indie bookstores and shit all along the streets that you never get bored. Plus there is the living room, and lupos and literally a bunch of other places for music venues. Not to mention the Providence Mall and fire water and the beautiful state of the city itself…sure there are bad areas, but there are in all cities. oh, and the cost of living isn’t bad, either. So that was my conclusion. you should come with me. 🙂

    Comment by whiskywaterkiss — July 4, 2006 @ 5:38 pm

  9. Okay…. a complete outsider’s 411 on this: 1) it sounds like you want to clean up your GPA so you can persue other studies at a later date. Do yourself a favour – do this only if you think you will be able to give 100% to it. Reason being is that if you finish it and get good marks, you may have a shot of transferring the credits to another university/college (we call colleges ‘universities’ up here in Canada). 1 a) if you want a change of scenery but still want to finish college, see if you can actually transfer credits to another university/college in a different town. See if you can get some Prior Learning Assessment credits (PLAs). 2) whatever you do, ensure that you can get a decent paying job with the amount of education and certifications you do have. There’s no point in relocating if you can’t get a job that will do a little more than cover your bills. Doesn’t make any sense to me. I could go on, but really, Neil, the first thing you need to do is define what you want. Without that, you’re just going to aimlessly wander around, and it probably won’t be beneficial to you in the long run because you’ll look back and go, “My God, I pissed away X number of years doing jack.” Not only that, but ‘running away’ won’t solve anything. Make a plan about what you want to see/do/experience. For example, if you want to go to England next year, make sure you have enough money saved away, passport obtained, etc. I hope I don’t sound too preachy. I wish I had listened to some of the advice that I was given when I was in my early 20s. It would’ve saved me some heartache, and financial setbacks. I also would be a librarian by now, instead of just beginning my Masters (at the ripe ol’ age of 32). Hope this helps. Good luck!

    Comment by shiara_ — July 5, 2006 @ 5:00 am

  10. neil, my aims down and you are at work. i’ll call you later on tonight. blah

    Comment by origami_sushi — July 5, 2006 @ 11:30 pm

  11. I like living in Boston. Or Brighton/Allston, more correctly, but same thing. I’m going to school in Framingham, gonna finish that up, and then probably try and live in california for a year. Then, go where I want to. Yeah, it’s good to have plans in life, but only so much in life goes according to plan. I plan on getting my masters in art education or some studio concentration, but who knows. I think school is a good idea, and if you CAN take classes you should. I think being young should be all about experiences, but also setting up the foundation for your future. Including who you’ll become, and what you’ll do.

    Comment by rudenreckless — July 6, 2006 @ 8:36 pm

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