nearly 2 months after that post i finally got what i wanted. i feel a lot better now. messing around with finding the right dose for a couple weeks, i'm good now. 10mgs in the morning at work, 5 around 5 if i'm going out and feel crappy. enough to pick me back up but not make me crazy. crystalyn said it made me less myself, and more focused/concentrated/stuck in a box of creativity. i don't feel like that, i don't know if i'm any more serious, i guess i just want to stay on track more.

appetite supression for the first few days, i guess i didn't notice. 30mgs on an empty stomach was complete elation, completely unnatural, is it wrong that i kind of enjoyed it? but i won't again

only on food, never >10mgs at once, never >20/day.

i'm happier at work, more productive, it's easier for me to read/work on shit when i'm at home, i wish i was on this 10 years ago

also i am still seeing the shrink i went to for the initial evaluation, i dont' know why

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